.Saturday, November 15, 2008 ' 6:16:00 PM Y
i love you & your love is all i ever wanted
Zul4ever aka Zulkiflie' Is A Dumb Stupidious Guy In The World...Don't U Thnk So? YES I AM. Whatever I do will always goes wrong. Don't you guys know what is the 4 things u shouldnt break in life. Trust, relationship, promise, and heart. Cause when they break, they never cry but suffered in silence. Once again I make her to be like that and it is all of because of my dumb stupidious action. All is over now. I don't think she forgive me anymore. I give up BUT whatever it is, although she didnt forgive me, my love for her will NEVER DIES.
You asking me to forget her? There is NO WAY I could forget her my dear readers since HER is already 100% sticked on my mind and heart. I seriously won't forget her very easily EXCEPT for one extreme action; COMMIT SUICIDE. Ok Ok that is simply dumb and dumber. I already promise myself, my family and friends I won't repeat that incident again BUT my life just hurt too much, especially during my childhood time (1992 to 2001; pri and sec sch time) full of bulliers, ppl calling me names and some harrassment which I can't disclose here. And my crucial life is not over yet, another incident happen again in 2002 when i were 17. This is a true life story and I hope it can be lesson to all especially nerdy out there. To cut it short, I have a relationship with this girl lah, my so called ex-gf for only 3 weeks je. Why so short? Ok u know why? Because one day, I saw her with another guy and I confront them lah and guess what I found out that she is already engaged with that guy. Oh my god, I am so dumb stupid lah. I has been cheated all along. All the money that I spent for her is just worthless.
My dear readers, many of you think I am a normal guy BUT the fact is NO. FYI, I am a special gifted person. Not a person with high abilities but a person with special needs. I am deemed as slow person, based on my history. I only beginning to talk at the age of 3 and my IQ is quite low. K1, K2, P1, P2, P3 and P4; I failed every single subjects, and at one time in P3, my principal suggested to my parents for me to be send to a special school but my parents objected to it and I managed to buck up in P5 and above. That is why my English is quite poor up til today.
My dear readers who have me in your MSN or YM friendlist, I won't be online for the next few days or weeks as I need time to rest my mind. Before I ended my rants here, I would like to thanks god, my family, my relatives, AliffAngels, Hamizah, Sufri, Syafieka, Mamahani, Ida, Ika, Mira Nazira, HafizZ aka Illicit and many more which i can't recall their names for your care and love for me. Thank you and I love you guys so much.
