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.Friday, May 14, 2004 ' 11:08:00 PM Y

i love you & your love is all i ever wanted

A translated true article for all teenager out there taken from local Malay newspaper; Berita Harian; "Ekstra" section Pg 16 dated 14 May 2004 entitled "Dont blame other people":

I am a 16 years old teenage girl. I would like to share with all teenagers out there about my daily life.

Mid last year, my parents find out that I have a boyfriend.

Immediately they blame my boyfriend for the reason I always fail the school examination.

With that, they make more my life more miserable for me and starting to control me. My father will take me to school and after school, my mother will take me home.

My friends give me a new nickname. They call me "anak mak" or "mother's child".

Handphone, which I always make it as my communication thingy to call my friends for a chit chat have been given back and kept by my mother while my computer has been moved from my room to the living room.

At home, I am not allowed to close my room's door because my mother scare that I quietly having a handphone.

I also not allowed to go to shop even it is near my home, except with my mother.

Go to shop near my home cannot, how about go out with my friends. More even cannot!!

At first, I cannot accept the new environment. All my foot steps are being watched. For that, it make me more frustrated.

My relationship with my mother has been bad. She always take advantage to find my mistake and blame my friends for teaching me to be aggresive to my parents.

For example; if my mother see my room in a mess, she say my friends teach me to do that mess and much more.

She sometime cry because of my attitude. We always quarrel. She always compare me with other people's child and also with my elder sister who currently study at university.

Day by day, I getting more stress and stress.

But when I sit down and think, I begin to realise that I am the one who make my mother change her attitude.

If I never join a chatters group by always stick to my computer, I will not been controlled closely like this. I make the wrong use of freedom which my parents give to me by meeting my boyfriend.

Even though I never call him anymore, my parents still dont believe me.

With that, I would like to remind all teenagers who always bla bla about wanting freedom or those who already had been given freedom, dont ever ever lose your parents' hope toward you.

Once they never believe us, forever and ever they wont believe us.

Many of my so called going to be friends thought that if they going through the same thing like me, maybe they will feel more stress up, blame their parents and maybe run away from home.

But before we blame our parents, we suppose to ask ourselves why they make us like a piece of so called.....

Now I realise that my parents dare to spend time to correct me.

I also dont know when I will get back my happy lifestyle like last time; study group with my friends, do activities outdoor with friends.

I am also like other teenagers who want a little space for breathing.

By efkay nb (not real name)

PS: Dont ever ever make our parents so sad...remember they are the one who always spend time with us since we were inside mommy's stomach...they give us foods and drink...give us home to live in...give us clothes to wear...give us money to spend...without them we wont be here today...remember that guys...=)